Thursday, March 18, 2010

He’s my favourite person

Caution: Mushy post ahead. You can choose not to read before you continue to scroll down.

I've been falling in and out of love for countless time. Whenever I got into a relationship, I would think that I've finally found the right guy. And I would always say the same thing which is; I hope we will last forever but I realized that forever is a lie and there's no such thing as that. Now that I've found another guy, I don't dare to say so anymore. But what if I got my heart broken again? What if it doesn't work out again this time? People might also think I do not take love seriously and that I move on easily. Then I think to myself that maybe, just maybe it wasn't love at all. But I did fell for every guy whom I used to think as my so-called boyfriend, so it is love huh? or infatuation? or just that I need someone by my side? sigh now I find my love life is a mess, in fact a very complicated one.

I love you means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. I love you means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping you’ll feel the same way.

Now that I've found another half of me, I won't repeat those silly mistakes I used to. I'll take things more seriously from now on. And I'll love him to the utmost and be there when he needs me. I promise. Everything seems so good now and I can't find the perfect excuse to ruin this pretty little thing yet powerful called love that made us both go mad.

Kenneth Wong, you may not be the hottest guy on earth but you are the clumsy and crazy one who makes me smile and have all my attention. You always give me one of a kind smile that makes me go jelloid. And somehow I know we were meant for this. Sometimes, caring enough to try is enough. You are spontaneous and always doing something I would never expect and that makes me fall for you. You would love me for everything I am.

Thanks for everything (: Promise me that you're going to hold on to me like I am now and never letting go. 9 days and still counting. I feel blessed to have you as a part of my life. I love you.

"Without you, nothing feels as good. It’s like I’m missing some happy part of me."
—Coach Carter


1 comment:

Lyna Abraham said...

sweet la hilda :D yalah. kdng2 ayat2 yang dikeluarkan amat merugikan. so,better say I love u if betol2 nya jodoh kita. sgt mahal kata2 itu.HIHIHI. anyway. nice blog :D