Monday, June 4, 2012

Here comes the fighter

Yuhooooo, I am back again after a long weekend including today, another public holiday in Sarawak (: And yes it's June already! After a few more weeks, we would be entering into the second half of 2012. So you know how they say new month, new beginning and speaking of which we actually have 12 chances in a year to have a new beginning. May was considered quite awesome after a  major breakdown somewhere in April, I guess sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things. So, I was hibernating at home for the whole month of May, doing what I do best, well fed and pampered besides having a couple of good things going on as well. Now that June has arrived, I've been anticipating for this one news in order to put my sorrow to an end. Surprisingly, it was out earlier than all of us expected - OUR FINALS RESULT. I've passed my other two modules(!) but I still have to resit for the module that I've flunked earlier. To be honest, I still can't get over the fact that I screwed it up once or maybe it's just the asian kia-su genes in me overreacting.  But the thought of screwing it up again is really driving me up the wall, which would be probably the last thing I wanna do. A swirl of emotions I couldn't quite pin down. I think about it every night before I go to bed...and I ended up having a hard time falling asleep. I know how unusual it is of me to dump  everything out  here but I just can't help it. 
This is exactly how I feel. 
I've learned that life isn't a bed of roses and how it can seem so daunting at times. People may go like, duh it's just a paper, why so emo.. I even said that I'm fine but I don't get it either why am I babbling about this all over again, eff emotions ahhh it must be the cabin fever. No matter what are the odds, I still have to face it. I can do this, I can make it through!
Be confident. Too many days are wasted comparing ourselves to others and wishing to be something that we aren't. 

I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of non feeling, or stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out. To learn and think: to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.   
                                                                                                                                           — Sylvia Plath
Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter. 

There's a fighter somewhere underneath this skin and bones; When you stop fighting, you stop living. We all need that thing that’s worth fighting for. Maybe it’s a certain someone, or a special place, maybe just an idea. So find your right, and fight like hell, till your battle is won. 

You have the strength, patience and passion to achieve your goal, all you have to do is TRY. 
Last but not least, to all the fighters out there! ヽ(´▽`;)/♪



~Joeanney~ said...

YAY! i guess it correctly. Yea, anyway, i know you can do it, you're way stronger than me, make it a bullseye this time. I can come back to me your model for you to practice if you need :P

Camy said...

nice photos!

Elin said...

Another model here! :D 加油

Anonymous said...

i've been in that situation before so i understand your feeling.. reading your post made me realised that life's indeed not always a bed of roses..

Small Kucing said...

Hang on. its just another phase you have to go through. things will b better

Vin Tsen Gan said...

Ahh, no worries lah bro, you're not gonna screw up your paper again. Have faith young one!

YOU'RE GONNA DO WELL YO! (because I typed in caps)

Henry Tan said...

is okayyyy. u will be alright when you finish mumbling. sometimes we just need to release it all out. =)

nicccchang said...

Yeapp! Believe in yourself! You can do it!. Believe magic. work hard and work smart and you will gain! Trust God. God will lead you the way. Let's add oil together. I will pray for you as well ^^ Be happy! :-D

Tony Teh said...

thought you're gonna put aguilera's fighter music video instead lol. anyway, we all fight for one reason or another. i'm currently fighting for survival. let's win our fights! =) LG Cinema 3D Smart TV review

Kian Fai Koh said...

what can I say . . . . Kay Yao? :)