I shouldn't have let you let me go;

I will be damned if I do and screwed if I don't.
Sometimes, I think of u when I heard our songs.
Sometimes I feel like stabbing you in your guts.
Sometimes I cried over you for stupid reasons.
Sometimes I think of you when I heard our songs.
Things around me tends to remind me of you and our memories.
Enough is enough, though I still and will always love you~

Again, it was the day of the month when I go all grumpy and moody. These usually leads to PMS-ing, pimples sprouting out, period pain(!) with a backache as well. Great, what's next? Thank God Cadbury chocolate bar always comes in handy at times like this to boost my happy hormones. I've been into Gossip Girls, just started watching last week from the first season and will catch up till the end of Season 2. I can't wait for the Season 3 in Sept. I kinda miss studying and was trying to stuck my nose into this big book belongs to my sis, General Chem. Chem has been my fave among all the other science subjects. So I'll prolly start reading it this week or next week or anytime soon lah. Heh. Maths? Nanti lagi lah. In the meantime, I'm waiting for my parents to bring me go shopping so that I can pack my stuffs for college. I will be leaving in 19 more days and I'm kinda worried that I can't meet Cathy when she's back here. That's an order from Mum cause she said she might bring the flu and I can only meet her after a week. Damnn. That will be a few hours before I'm leaving for KL. That's so not fair. I've been killing my time doing housechores, eating, online, wishing to hang out with friends *still planing on it* and watching more dramas. That's all I can do. Not much. At least I don't get rotten doing nothing at home. Life's goodddddd :D

Btw, Zee Avi is on twitter; http://twitter.com/ZeeAvi, follow her! and a note for Nad; Good luck for your presentation and the listening test. She's been busy for few days already and hardly get enough rest, not to say sleep. Poor her. Hope she's okay and everything gonna be perfectly fine. Go girl. && a note for Cathy; Happy leaving Qatar for good and enjoy your stay in Singapore. Better not get that nasty flu and kill the Bintulu-ans when you're back here. I really can't wait to see you soon. Yao is getting back from Matriks maybe this weekends or next Monday and I'm looking forward to that too. Missing both of you loadsssss. Kaban, fast fast come back. I wanna go out! *shout*

Ouch. I almost blind myself

with my beautiful pair of brown contacts. Grr. Especially, my left eye which gotten itchy and painful every minute these few days when I wear my contacts. I thought it was just the same old problem when it gets itchy (you know how contacts are like) until I couldn't take the pain any longer and then my eyes got watery. I took it out and checked, shocked to find the middle part of the lens are broken. I was like zomgwtf but thank God my cornea isn't scratched up or else I'll end up blind. Or I'm left with only one eye like Captain Hook. Or worst, get an eye operation. *scream* My left eye still hurts though. Hope it's okay. I don't want to wake up tomorrow and couldn't see a thing. Yikes.

So yesterday and today! I stayed at my cousins'. Oh yes, Megan was with me because our beloved parents was being very nice by leaving their children behind and went off to enjoy themselves. We had a blast. Megan was so hyperactive yesterday and didn't want to go to bed until we made her to. It was like already midnight! Little Meganie equals to Headache. Sigh.

I'm feeling uneasy and sick. I wish to lie down on the green grass and scream on top of my lungs. Life could be so unfair sometimes but we just have to live it to the fullest at any rate.

26th June

27th June

Location: Tg. batu beach
Feet: Blogger's own aka mine :D

P/s: Zee avi is my current obssession. My happy pills on cloudy days.

I still love you like I always do.
You?

I didn't see that one coming.

Earlier tonight, I was doing my laundry alone at the back of my house. Then, I heard a voice. A thick one and it sounds serious. A man's, saying shhh. Short but spooky enough to make my spine cold. I froze. Okay, I sound like I'm writing an essay about horror but it's hella true!. I looked at the house next door and the house behind mine to see if there's anyone in sight. It's dark and i was afraid. I ran to the kitchen, screaming at my parents.

Hilda: Dad, Mum. I heard something! *upset*
Mum: What? Stop being ridiculous.
Hilda: Wtf. *grumbles* I'm not lying.
Dad: Where?
Hilda: Back there. *heart beating fast*
Dad: Maybe it's just the neighbours.
Hilda: No, i saw nobody.

So Dad went to check and he saw nothing. Of course there was nothing and I didn't see that one coming too. Tears started welling in my eyes. I was freaked out okay. Thank God I didn't wet myself. :p

Happy Father's Day!

A father's love endures all. How true is this statement? I definitely agree 101%.

Obviously he was not ready.

I ❤ you daddy. You're the coolest dad ever and no one can replace you. He was an uptight dad and yet loving. I shall miss him a lot when I'm away from home. He always feel bad when I sulk about not getting what I want and he will try to make it up to me. He was always giving me one of those Daddy pep talks and ended with "It's for your own good" quote. This shows pretty much that he loves me, I know that :) Although Dad and I aren't as close as Mum and I are, he will always have the special place in my heart. I'm always daddy's little girl and I promise I wont let you down. Long live dad.

Little brat. Little monster.

It's been quite a day, with Megan bugging me from am to pm. Jees. I beg to anyone please take her away from me. Not too far, just a few miles away :P

She came back from tuition and screamed from the moment she got out of the car. I can go to Level Two! I'm not lying! I was like okay, impressive. She passed her test with flying colors, 97 marks. That's not bad right? I guess it runs in the family. Hahahaha. I am proud of her despite she did a few careless mistakes. Mum brought us for lunch and then I decided to get my fringe cut 'cause I need to take passport photo. Megan was whining in the saloon because she wanted a haircut too but Mum said no and then Megan ran to me and said that my hair was fugly. =.= She was just envy, I know that. I went to the beach today with Megan *had to drag her along* and my cousin :D Megan had fun with the toys that used to built sandcastles which Mum bought weeks ago. Megan was being a full time rambler today for she talked non-stop and this annoyed the heck out of me! I wonder how her nanny put up with her all these years. She complained when her sancastle was not successful. She imitated my cousin when she was on the phone. She was being fussy when making her sandcastles. Sheesh. She didn't want to go home and my cousin had to offer her air kelapa and finally she gave in. We reached home around 7 and went out again at 9pm with our parents and their friends for supper. Since there was no other kid, I was the victim. Again. She started to ask me a lot of questions about NS because she wanted to know about every single thing.

Hilda: Don't you feel tired talking non stop?
Megan: No, not at all. You leh?
Hilda: Yes.
Megan: Nvm, you just have to nod or shake your head. I will continue to do the talking. *in chinese*
Hilda: =.=lll

For God's sake, can someone just shut her mouth up? Later on, I accompanied Megan to the toilet and I found out that she had no panties on. I told Mum about it and Megan got embarassed. Hahaha. And and she accused me of not wearing a bra?! What la. So hours later, she was getting sleepy and grumpy because Dad was still talking to his friends. Finally, around 11pm we headed home and that's when I get some peace. Megan's finally gone to Lalaland. Anyway, Hilda still loves you, like I always do. I have to admit life sucks without you.

Fortune cookies from chinatown

Err, my post has nothing to do with fortune cookies actually. I just feel chinese today. Mm, hang on. I am one. *giggles*

Right now, I'm tuning in love story meets viva la vida *melts*, eating dahfa dried fish fillet, and feeling pink. There's nothing much to talk about today. At home doing housechores as usual, at night went out with family having dinner :D and after that, went to the mall to buy my Hello Kitty speaker.



Next up, I'm so going to get that Hello Kitty mouse which I spotted in the shop but the price wasn't that reasonable. D: and oh yeah I bumped into my former classmate and we talked for a bit because she seemed to be in a rush. She's like so lansi. wtf. I wanna puke. *psst, I never liked her* No idea what to write. Bye then. Kissy kiss.

Promises is what you made,
Shit is what you gave,
I'm feeling insecure all alone
and I'm not putting any hope anymore
cause I can't bear another heartbreak
I'll be okay on my own
I guess... *fading*

What a day

Oish and I have been planning to hang out together which we did today :D and this time it was not just the two of us, there was Ikhwan as well who came late like two hours later. So, Oish and I hang out at Ice City first while waiting for Ikhwan.

My choco latte and Oish's fave; milk ice with chocolate

Ikhwan showed up around 3pm and the three of us headed to the mall! We bought a few things for ourselves and what's funny was, each one of us bought the same DVD Confessions Of A Shopaholic. Hehehe. Oish got herself a new blouse which is electric blue in colour, 2 DVDs and a Nivea lipbalm while Ikhwan bought a banana boat sunblock and his so called ubat berus gigi for his mum. Hahahaha. Enough ramblings. Bla bla bla. Here are some of our pichas :D












As for moi, I bought a laptop sticker and guess what, it's Hello Kitty :D I saw this cute Hello Kitty speaker but I didn't get to buy it. Was planning to bodek my dad to buy it for me. He said yes! *pumps fists* I'm getting it tomorrow :D Weehoo.

Before

After, tadaaaa!

One week of facing the ceiling and these four walls, I get to see the blue sky today and I surey-sure had lots of fun. Thanks you guys. :)

P/s: I was webcaming with Nad earlier this morning and she asked me VERY nicely to put up our picture so here you go Nad love! xD